LOST yet FOUND!!!!

I am lost…I don’t know where….i don’t wanna be found…but I wanna b searched for!!! Do I sound insane, weird or fuzzy???? Well am not!!! You see things the way you want them to be and you understand things the way it is easily understood by you. Just give your grey cells a little more hitch and try to learn the intense meaning of my phrase. Things that appear to be shallow might have an orphic depth in them. I am “ lost” in my thoughts….numerous affairs running into my various nerves that I can’t exactly get what is going on and “where” are these thoughts leading my mind…I “don’t want” anyone to read my mind..but I “want” someone to understand me!!!!! I suppose my statement gets transparent now :) . Well! I believe it is the state of mind most of us have and if I make it more specific most of us with a “thoughtful mind” have :) I find myself a lonely planet lost in the infinite sky and there are a jillion thoughts that revolve around the cerebrum of the master piece I have. Sometimes I find it difficult to figure out what my mind is pondering about as its unlikely possible to pick up the right thread from a cluster of entangled knots. I wish if I could find out the right knot but I fail to. I wonder if someone could help me out, understand the simple me caught inside a shell of complications and help me out through my loneliness but I am scared :( and yet again I fail to give someone a chance to bring me out of my space coz I do not want anyone to read what my mind keeps thinking and hence I prefer being a lonely planet. It’s more like having a guide whom I want to lead me to the treasure island but have no clue about the treasure. Sometimes each one of us want to be lost somewhere, get ourselves away from the debris of worries over us, find a place where the mind seeks nirvana. However, Nirvana for me is not a shear silence to meditate and shout for your inner spirits but to discover your inner self in chorus of the voices surrounding you. Gazing at the night sky...I imagine the sky to be my canvas where my fantasies are sketched connecting the stars as we drew images connecting dots on our drawing note, the gushing sound of the river seems to me like a melody to my ears and the breeze blowing off my face carries away the fragrance that mesmerizes my senses. And this is where and how my mind and soul seek the peace I sometimes really crave for! PS: I am no different but yes my perspective towards life makes a difference!!!!!!